161.5

Liquid fast cancelled. I don't think fasting is right for me right now. I keep messing up, binging, and getting frustrated. Instead, I'll count the calories and exercise. That motivates me more because I can hold onto the numbers. I think fasting isn't too far away, though. Weight went up to 161.5.... are you fucking kidding me? Four pounds?? But it's expected since I binged. Ugh. Must. Regain. Control.

Date with N. cancelled. His mariachi has a gig so he will be out of town tonight. :-( He was going to take me to a Mexican restaurant in Dallas. It's okay, though. We'll reschedule for after my recital... which is in 6 days. I'm going to have it recorded so I'll see if I can some how finagle a way to put some of it on here. I love the Parable for piccolo by Persichetti. That would be a short cute one.

Nasty shit I put into my body yesterday--

Breakfast:

-nothing

Lunch:

-sandwich on white bread with lettuce, alfalfa sprouts, provolone cheese, avocado, tomato, and cucumber >> 385 calories

Dinner: [read: fuck up]

-2 Fish Tacos >> I estimate 444 calories (online calorie counter) [not so bad]

-chips, salsa, queso, rice >> I estimate 300 calories [this is where I messed up big time]

Total Daily Intake: 1129 calories

Exercise:

20 minutes running a 5.5 mile and then cool down >> 153.5 calories, 1.41 miles