depressed

Worked out really hard all week. Ate under my calorie goals. Today, including last night's sushi, was a guilt free day. Lost weight. It all starts again tomorrow.

So, why do I feel so unattractive and ugly?

D. is more affectionate lately... maybe if I just looked a little better I wouldn't feel like I was bothering him.

I feel depressed. So fat. Can't bring myself to practice flute.

but I'm not giving up.